It's a real smack in the puss, isn't it?

It's worse than that...and the strangest part is Ididn't even know her very well, yet I lost at least 3 hours of sleep last night and today I have been uncontrolably sad...even Mars Volta won't cheer me up like it should.

We miss you Julie.

Summer 2006
 

Start saving money kids. We'll be meeting up next summer. Summer 2005 we met up in NY and there were about 16 of us who were able to get together and spend a few days laughing and crying.

Next summer we'll do it all over again.

Re: Summer 2006
 

I actually cried till I laughed!

Where will you meet up ? I know that Bobby and his wife would like to meet all of you. Texas is really a cool place. Although some of you might have to clean up your act. Bobby works for the San Antonio police department. He's not a policeman he's a CSI. I'm just joking, we all have a strange bond with all of you.

oh shit Tommy, you just passed Julie . I wouldn't walk outside if I were you.

Jus FYI...
 

Found out that this Friday the 18th...ugh it just clicked, it happened on June 18th...Anyway, at 10pm central time, the Comedians of Comedy episode on Comedy Central will be dedicated to Julie. Patton emailed me a while back asking if I had pics of em hangin' out. Not sure if they'll use em or have a caption. Either way, very special.

that's awesome of them to do

That is so great. If it was possible, I can hear the conversation now:

ME: "Julie, they're dedicating an episode of Comedians of Comedy to you!! "

JULIE: "Shudduup..."

Man, she was modest about the shit she cared about. I miss that

"yeah because patton hates me"

I've said it before, but God I wish I'd had the chance to meet her. Even once. I said I would go to that Patton Oswalt comedy central taping with her ages ago, really regret that I never went.

Anyway, the dedication is a perfect gesture.

She's watching
 

I know it sounds silly but I truly believe she is here with us. I've read so many books since all this happened. She thought it was so funny to put a rubber band on the kitchen sink sprayer so I would get drenched. In fact before I left that day, she did it one last time. She blamed Kyle, but I know she did it. Now the sprayer goes off on it's own. I'm still getting it without the rubber band. Please don't think I'm crazy, but I feel she looking after all of us.

A few years ago my cousin was killed in a car accident coming home after a night out.
My aunt had asked her to call if she wasn't going to come home, so that she'd know she was somewhere safe.

Well that night, my cousin never made it home, but my aunt received a phone call in the middle of the night, but there was no one on the other end of the phone.

So I don't know what that stuff means, but it has meaning.


Tommy and I were talking about Julie last night. She was so incredible. One of a kind in the most sincere way. She was so funny that it made me push myself to try and keep up with her.

No one has ever pushed me to try to be funny and creative like her.

Shes watching
 

A few weeks after Julie passed at 3:30 A.M. {the wreck happened at 3:30 P.M. } Rocky {her Dad} and Ryan{one of her brothers} cell phones rang. Both of them were the last messages they had sent her . Scarey ......... So many things keep happening. I have to believe they mean something. Julies cat Farley never came out of her room. He wouldn't have anything to do with anyone but her. Now I can't get away from him. He'll sit in my lap and just stair at me. Sometimes I feel like he's looking through me. {yes he was named after Chris Farley} I can't explain it but I feel she is watching.

My heartfelt condolences go out to you, brother. I barely knew Julie and yet, I feel like I have always known her. I'm not trying to be pretentious or anything but Julie was a very special person. It might be corny and/or cliché but I keep thinking of the Billy Joel song "Only the Good Die Young" whenever I think of her. I have never been so impacted by anothers passing so much as Julie's. By that I mean, no one has come up so often in my thoughts as much as she has. The amazing thing is that the thought of her fills me with such happiness and a smile and every now and then when I come upon an old post of her's I get sad but she never fails to crack me up. Her death seems so fucking meaningless but her LIFE seems so meaningful. At the very least, she's effected so many people and in such a good way. I know that statements such as that do little to console you and the fact you lost your sister. Her life meant something. Her life influenced people from all around the world. Her life made us all want to laugh and make others laugh and be happy. You're not crazy to think she's still around. I feel her spirit every day. She is still here with us.