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Treebeard 06-23-2005 03:49 PM

I haven't posted yet in this thread. I don't really know what to say.

Julie was nice to me, and most people aren't.

Julie made me laugh, and most people don't.

Julie was probably a better person than me. I'd say the odds are pretty good. I'm not saying it should've been someone else who died, I'm just saying that the world is fucking bullshit.

I could've gone to a show in Arizona or whatever southwest state it was last fall with her and some other butm people. I had the money. I just didn't do it. I don't know why. I regret not taking advantage of the opportunity to meet her, but I'm probably glad I didn't. I've never had anyone close to me die. Ever. I don't know how I would've reacted. Is there a word for this kind of feeling? It's almost somewhat similar to being selfish, but when I'm the person who benefits/loses out on each side, I don't see how that could be right.

This post clearly makes no sense. Excellent.

I don't know if it's a national thing or what, but where I live, if you're going to dig in a yard, you have to call this number and they come out and mark where electricity and phone lines and that stuff is so you dont dig down into them. The acronym for the people who do this is J.U.L.I.E. Today at work, my boss told me to call J.U.L.I.E. in preparation for our next job. I don't know why, but when he said it, it nearly made me cry. It was by far the most upset I had been since hearing the news. I think a part of me is still just not accepting that she's gone. I probably didn't talk to her more than once or twice a week anymore, so in my head, this non-Julie thing is just a little blip so far. I need to find a way to deal with this.

Finally, I just want to add that I would pay upwards of a couple hundred dollars for a recording of those old conference calls that we meant/tried to save unsuccessfully.

I miss Julie.

scotch-romanian 06-23-2005 04:27 PM

Could it be that Julie is the first non-celebrity in history whose death affected so many people who never met her? I mean, because message boards are a pretty recent invention and there can't be THAT many that are this close-quarters where most of the people share a common interest aklsdjgf jhla;sd uilausdg does anyone get what I'm saying though because I definitely can't explain it very well but whatever.

tjamick 06-23-2005 04:36 PM

About a year ago one of the guys that posted at NewGrounds.com also died in a car crash. I don't know if this many people were effected, but there were a lot of people who seemed to like him. I've never posted on that site, but i saw a memorial to him when i was checking the site one night.

agent_PUNT 06-23-2005 04:55 PM

Julie would have been a famous writer.

Mark my words.

She was 20 years old, had an awesome group of friends and associates who were helping her out.

And uh.. yeah she was pretty fucking funny.

I'm pissed of the whole world missed out on a chance to find out what we already knew.

Go Spurs.

huond 06-23-2005 05:16 PM

When we were in NY, she would constantly write down ideas for channel 101 pilots. She saved them to my laptop (titled JULIE IS AWESOME.doc) but then wrote them in a notebook and deleted the file becuase she was afraid I would steal the ideas she had already pitched to me before she even wrote them down. Fucking goofball.

They were all just basic outline notes and probably wouldn't make much sense to anyone else if those pages were found. I'd love to see them again.

andy blitz 06-23-2005 06:19 PM

If anyone wishes to join me in my tribute (or avoid me):

I am hoping to make it to Redd's which is at 511 Grand St (btwn Union and Lorimer) in Williamsburg near the Lorimer L or G stop to watch the game. I don't know if I'll be there by tipoff though.

tjamick 06-23-2005 06:35 PM

Andy, Thanks for coming to our nerdy little board to talk about her. It means a lot.

In other news, I'm dedicating my stand-up on Wednesday to her. I know that she probably would have hated it, and that me doing this doesnt mean much, but she was one of the few people here who I always felt the need to impress, so I think dedicating it would be appropriate. Of course I'm not going to mention it on stage, but you guys will know.

agent_PUNT 06-23-2005 07:15 PM

I was always scared to try stand-up but after talking to Julie's mom I know that I really have no choice.

But I know Julie will love my jokes. Which pretty much means the asshole open-mic night crowd is going to hate me.

But shit man, if i don't try doing something like this it would be so wrong.

Tj, I wish you luck.

I'm going to open and close with Mexican rape jokes in honor of Julie.

klaus_kinski 06-24-2005 10:41 AM

I met up with Andy (and one of his friends; I got wasted and forgot his name) and Billy from AST. Billy was an incredible host. My wallet was in my pocket the whole night. The Spurs won and we were the only people rooting for them. It was awesome a great feeling seeing them win.

I have to admit though that I am having such a Julie post-drinking night moment. I feel like I got too drunk and may have made myself look like an ass. I was so happy that Andy and Billy made it out that I think I got too giddy, the beers took over, and I looked like a fool. I hate myself. I'm going to start smoking.

ANDY, if I was a annoying, I apologize. Cripes

I didn't even go to work today. I snuck onto my roommates computer.

Crimony

andy blitz 06-24-2005 03:55 PM

She'd love not only the come from behind win but also I think the very real emotional attachment we all had- just because of her- to an Argentinian man who's name none of us could pronounce (And I'm half-Argentinian).

Even the drunk gambler at the end of the bar who said he lost hundreds of dollars he didn't have and would now get his jaw broken was a gracious loser. It didn't seem to dampenen his enthusiasm for air drumming to "Message in a Bottle" anyway.

huond 06-24-2005 03:56 PM

I'm at Julie's right now and we're all looking at photos, telling stories, watching her dog Ace eat flies out of the air, and stuff.

Anyways, Jeff: Do you remember us begging Julie to not start smoking? There are a couple cigarettes in front of her TV here and her mom came in and told us that Julie said, "Mom, I haven't been able to do it yet, but I'm trying really hard to start smoking." Fucking weirdo.

I'm glad you, Billy, and Andy were able to meet up last night. Billy called and told me that he gathered all of his friends that even briefly met Julie when she was in town for last night. He is #1 in my book.

JohnDenver 06-24-2005 06:17 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by scotch-romanian
Could it be that Julie is the first non-celebrity in history whose death affected so many people who never met her? I mean, because message boards are a pretty recent invention and there can't be THAT many that are this close-quarters where most of the people share a common interest aklsdjgf jhla;sd uilausdg does anyone get what I'm saying though because I definitely can't explain it very well but whatever.
I was thinking the same thing. I post here only rarely, I really just swing by because I think there are alot of really clever people out there who post exceptionally funny things here on a regular basis. But I wanted to just throw something up there because, even though I didn't know Julie at all, she made me laugh quite often, and, now that she's gone, the sense of loss is genuine and profound.
While I can't even begin to offer any meaningful condolances to Julie's friends and family in the face of something so incomprehensibly awful, I totally get what scotch is saying. Julie didn't have an agent or PR. People knew about her simply because of her unique personality; because of who she was as a human being. She was by no means famous yet completely audible, and I just think that's kind of amazing.

Kelsy 06-25-2005 02:32 AM

Ok, I have never posted... but i have read every post in this thread and everyone said such sweet things. Reading them made me cry. I never even met Julie, and the loss of her made such an impact. What an amazing girl.

Wareheim 06-25-2005 09:00 PM

I'm going to eat your 1 LB burger for you. Wish you could be here.

klaus_kinski 06-25-2005 11:34 PM

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